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adjusting
still wonders what it takes to be happy
depressed?
backpack
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| WHO AM I (Lili Frost)
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Today, on the street
In the metro,
It's a melancholy day
No one speaks
Passing you by
Wondering why
Today, like any day
Rolled out of bed
Talked on the telephone
Went to the doctor, she said
You're OK
Still I wonder
Who am I
Today in the air
On the water
Ships pass you by
Clouds fantasize
Dragging shapes across the sky
Wondering why
Who am I
Clarion crows for the courtsmans brigade
Centuries before on this very stage
Gypsies serenade, passed through DNA
And so it found its way
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Monday, April 14, 2008
@10:24 pm
there's this girl i know who has not one but three status that some guys would ever dream of should he has a girlfriend. she wished she could have all them tattoed on her legs but due to unforeseen circumstances, sigh.
her year ended and started pretty well. she enjoyed christmas and hari raya and new year. there are pictures which i'll help link later.
in between though, she had pretty rough times. one of them involved this guy she enjoyed hanging out with. there's this adrenaline feeling sometimes but she knew she had to brush it off. probably 'cause she's looking for something serious and is afraid to take the risk. well, she's not getting any younger and so is he. she doesn't want to waste his time. they've been pretty close since early this year. "Go only.." her/his friends would say. frankly, her heart says yeah but her head says no. he asked like what. five times? they had like an on and off thing of contacting. they could be talking/texting 7 days a week for maybe 2 weeks or just a once a month. and she's still trying to understand what makes it so hard to not think about him. i think he's the next guy she's comfortable with after her exboyfreind. i bet she's having mixed feelings. that sucks. and lately, there had been a problem between them and the friends they hangout with. it sucks more 'cause there seemed to be loss of trust. i told her to not get involved. maybe she don't need to meet them often. silence. she miss him. so did he. i suggested that she should start seeing other guys. and she said she will. in june. 'cause
work isn't helping her either. her transfer to another department had affected her social/personal life thus, no date. sucks like FUCK. totally mad. she hasn't been going home on time. it's depressing. the thought of it makes her wanna cry. everyfreakingtime. she wants six months gone like -. yup. that short. thank god her colleagues are fine. except for one or two. maybe three or four. basically i think beacause she's having trouble communicating with these old ladies. pretty emotional at times. she can't take it. oh and yesterday she had this lady who claimed to be a psychic. so this girl i knew asked the lady if she can answer her questions. she said can.
girl: when will you see me getting married?
lady: i have to see your palm.
(so she showed.)
lady: 2 years.
girl: and how long will it take for me to find him? as a boyfriend first.
lady: (she shake her head) no hope. no hope for you to get married.
girl: you said i'll get married in 2 years!
lady: no. you won't get married. i lied. no hope.
haha. played with her feelings. but this kind of thing sure makes her day actually. i'm glad.
and then, she has assignment which she probably is doing right now. that added to her stress. mmhmm. she's studying part-time and part-time regretting. seemed kinda hard to concentrate. exams coming up soon i heard. all the best.
and to destress, she join a fitness club. True. gentle/therapy yoga or just cardio workout works. going with girlfriends make it more fun. oh. she's a cheerleader too. hasn't been going often though ever since she's not in the nationals. she felt that by being there, she'll be enjoying too much and will make it harder to let go when time to go had come.
her birthday just passed too. she got polaroid, backpack and a storybook! her sister still owe her. so do i. she love her friends! and what she did on her birthday? check out concrete romans and watched step up 2. awesome moves! still prefer step up 2 though. no mum or bird and the bee. huhu.
her traffic police test is in one month's time. im so praying that she'll pass! aaah! she will la. haha.
well, that pretty much bring her story to an end. close to end. haha. pretty dumb to be telling someone else story instead of your own. that's because my life probably sucks.
bye.
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