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adjusting
still wonders what it takes to be happy
depressed?
backpack
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| WHO AM I (Lili Frost)
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Today, on the street
In the metro,
It's a melancholy day
No one speaks
Passing you by
Wondering why
Today, like any day
Rolled out of bed
Talked on the telephone
Went to the doctor, she said
You're OK
Still I wonder
Who am I
Today in the air
On the water
Ships pass you by
Clouds fantasize
Dragging shapes across the sky
Wondering why
Who am I
Clarion crows for the courtsmans brigade
Centuries before on this very stage
Gypsies serenade, passed through DNA
And so it found its way
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Thursday, April 02, 2009
@1:51 pm
i am taking a break from doing this assignment last minute. it gets tiring when its the smae thing over. as in essay non-stop. i'm having doubts taking further higher education. but i do dream of being at least a part time lecturer. haha. i bet all kids will love me. i'm damn calm, easygoing and lenient la. like real. me and my dreams.
but i think the biggest dream i want now is..shit. i don't know. somehow all seem broken and i have to make a new one.
i had me a bodoh day 2 days ago. thanks to this grogginess. i left home without my uniform to work. at work, i left my civilian clothes in the toilet. lucky no one threw it. and then im not sure if i should go home or do my assignment at the library. end up going library but no seats left. so i search for resources. got some but realised i'm not even sure now if they're relevant. go only.
23. twenty three. i love that number now because u love that. the year didn't start great for me and i was looking forward to 23rd. mogwai in january. birthday in february (unsucessful tho), COLDPLAY in march. in MY birthday month. hee. and i'm 23 on the 13th. get it? you get it. and you turn into a new 3 on 23rd. see? it was a supposed to be a great year for us. but anyway.
it gets better slowly. i am not that alone. but i'm still sober. life haven't been that happening til you came and i mean happening. face it. they're just the unexpected. i still have things to say but it won't mean as much now. we're slowly healing. i'm really glad we are still talking and i stil can turn to you. same goes to you, i hope.
and now i'm in dilemma. on the day when my feet won't touch ground. yup, after coldplay. thanks for spoilong my mood la eh. but it's only fair that feelings have to let go. i'm not saying i hate him because you cannot hate someone so much but its just weird. you guys are friends for almost 9 years!
ok. i'm as confused as you probably are now. nevermind.
i say cb to my friend and she replied pk. i didn't know malay also got abbreviation for that. haha.
tears still welled up when i listen to fix you. i've been singing to their songs because i love it. only after the concert did i realise most songs explained something in my life. everybody's life in fact. can u imagine after 5 years then it meant deeply for me? silly girl. wah. they have became more than my favourite awesome band. dy and i promised we'll go watch them if they are still playing in 20 years time. i'm so bringing my kids along. HAHA. dream on.
kelly osbourne is engaged to luke warroll. man with boyish looks still turn me on. he's cute lor and they're like 6 years apart. i should start looking for 18 year olds now. first stop, bukit batok driving centre. k kentalz.
i took gmax 5. the swing one not up and down one at cark quay. it's the only thrilling thing me and friend can think of. the adrenaline rush is undescribablebubble! i wish it was longer. but when i'm up there i wish it would stop. hahah! i so wanna go aussie or california for the most dangerous rollercoaster ride. or even bungee jumping. best kan. i'm still on a mission to paintballing.
this is proabably the longest post. i don't care.
i've been hooked to facebook more than last time now. i don't know why. i feel bonded.
hmm. this could have been my other 25 random things post.
i miss this smell of rain! i wish i could listen to joshua radin and go to sleep. but first. go pasar malam buy warm warm food and eat and watch tv series of maybe..one tree hill? then sleep. but no. i'm stuck with this assignment and a runny nose instead. amazing i can still smell the rain.
somebody told me rachael yamagata's coming to singapore but i don't think so. anyway, her latest album kind of too mellow compared to the previous which was more..can say upbeat.
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i am listening to explosions in the sky now! some boost! but.
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eh, i don't know which one to write first la eh. my English are getting more crappy. i need to relearn grammar and English. 5 more hours!
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"Girls are taught a lot of stuff growing up. If a guy punches you he likes you. Never try to trim your own bangs and someday you will meet a wonderful guy and get your very own happy ending. Every movie we see, Every story we're told implores us to wait for it, the third act twist, the unexpected declaration of love, the exception to the rule. But sometimes we're so focused on finding our happy ending we don't learn how to read the signs. How to tell from the ones who want us and the ones who don't, the ones who will stay and the ones who will leave. And maybe a happy ending doesn't include a guy, maybe... it's you, on your own, picking up the pieces and starting over, freeing yourself up for something better in the future. Maybe the happy ending is... just... moving on. Or maybe the happy ending is this, knowing after all the unreturned phone calls, broken-hearts, through the blunders and misread signals, through all the pain and embarrassment you never gave up hope."
i bet you girls and a few boys know where this is from ;)
i'm cheering for myself right now!
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i felt ignored.
my sister just climbed 138 steps to mount sophia where she's decided to study. 138 steps! she counted!
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good morning. i didn't off my lappie. what energy wasted! i finally reached like 2100 words, more than i expected, yup not what's expected but i don't care. i think my points are there. not clearly understood but can be understood. haiz. one month assignment turn 5 days. always like that. i shall make a resolution now to start at least 4 weeks before due date.
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0945h. finally over! i'm going to play more quizzes on facebook, hang out with dad, shower and off to handing up the assignment, catch up with the bitches and probably even catch confessions of a shopaholic!
have a great weekend all. and have fun OASIS-ing. i have no regret not going because coldplay is still the shit!!
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